Note To Self.

Note To Future Me:

You have twenty years behind you, but you still have your whole life ahead of you.

     Relax. You are also going to travel. You will go from one city to another, converse in multiple languages, explore countries and their sights. When you do, you are going to meet people who will deeply impact you. You are going to converse with people who are different from you, similar to you, people who you like or might not like. Hear their stories. What frightens them, what motivates them, what keeps them going. And you are going to find out that there is more to life than any of this.

     You will feel pain, sadness, and discomfort. But you will also feel alive, exuberant, and human. Sometimes you will screw up and make mistakes. You are going to fail, be misunderstood, and get dragged, feel like you will never get up. You are going to get tired. But you are also going to realize that it is okay to fail. You will be telling yourself to rest on days you lack motivation, feel the ugliest, or have the smallest hope, but you are going to acknowledge that giving up won't be your best option. You are most likely going to lose yourself in the process of trying to figure life out, but you are also going to find something worth living for. You are going to tear yourself into pieces going after what you want, and learn to love yourself for it.

     You are going to fall in love. One day. It could be a few years from now. Or maybe tomorrow. Next week. Or who knows when. Your heart is bound to be broken once or twice. But despite the inevitability, you are going to make yourself believe in love again. Because you are not as cold as ice as you would like to think. Your heart wants to love, it's what it does. You are a product of combined heartaches, growing wisdom, and rational hope. This is what makes you, you. So live to the fullest, you are still young!

     This is the journey you are supposed to be taking. Consider yourself the driver. The creator. You are twenty years old, so stop doubting yourself. Be you and don't look back.

Promise Yourself...

Promise Yourself...

     Promise yourself to be so strong that nothing can disturb your mind of mine. To talk health, happiness, and prosperity to every person you meet. To make all your friends feel like that is something in them. To look at the sunny side of everything and make your optimism come true. To think only of the best, to work only for the best, and expect only the best. To be just as enthusiastic about the success of others as you are about your own. To forget the mistakes of the past and press on to the greater achievements of the future. Promise yourself to give every living person you meet a cheerful smile. To give so much time to the improvement of yourself that you don't have time to criticize others. To be too large for worry, too noble for anger, too strong for fear, and too happy for troubles. Promise yourself.

Big Headed Humans Only Want To Be Animals

     As humans we see ourselves as dominate. We have the larger brain, we know more than any other species in the world. We are the best of the best. But then we tend to think animals are lower than us, because they can't figure out how to solve a math equation, or drive a car. Humans can send rockets to the moon, but all the scientist in the world couldn't design and operate a bumblebee's wings. We can't jump or run very fast, and we cant wait carry enormous weighs like an ant can. We can't see in the dark or fly, except crammed in a noisy airplane like sardines. Yet, we are "the greatest species to live". 
     Animals are amazing creatures. And yet we still think they have no consciousness or soul. They talk, they have families, they feel things, and some want to be alone while others like company. They care for their young like a tribe. They play, travel, and medicate themselves when they get sick. They cry when someone in the herd dies and celebrate when a new member of the herd is born.
     And us humans gets so caught up in getting smarter, bigger, and better, we lost all the natural qualities to an animal that is most important. We think that we have evolved above animals, but not with the virtues that matter. We strive so hard to get to the top, that we loose the ability to show love to our own kind, to live life in ways we should, relaxing and spending time with family, and we loose our ability to even enjoy ourselves anymore. So now when you declare ourselves "dominate" we only now are attempting to achieve the souls that animals have naturally. 

You Don't Find These Often

     Every now and then we all have bad days, and we all know how badly they suck. A bad day is definitely not fun, but they just happen, you can't do anything about it. You can only try to stay optimistic and hope the next day will be better.
     I have a friend and she is the realest person I know. She goes through a lot she shouldn't have to but she still finds the time to make sure everyone is having a good day. If they aren't she takes the time to listen and help out in any way she can. Many of times I have called her up hysterically crying, at some points I couldn't even talk. She would just listen to me cry and I would listen to her tell me all the reasons why I shouldn't be crying. She doesn't like to see anyone having a bad day. She puts others before herself all the time. But the thing is, she doesn't have to do that. She does it because happiness is important to her. Happiness for herself, and others.
     She sends out a Word of Encouragement almost everyday. And everyday I try my best to stick to the advice and spread it on to others. But recently one Word of Encouragement really stuck out to me.

 It read:
You there,
The one reading this now,
I want you to do something foe me,
Smile.
Smile because you are beautiful
because you are amazing
because you are unique
because you are a fighter
because you are a survivor.
Smile because your smile is too beautiful to hide away.
Smile because today is a wonderful day and tomorrow is a new one.
Smile because no matter what you think, someone loves and appreciates you.
Smile because you deserve to.
     I love that Word of Encouragement, it is by far one of my favorites. I just can't express enough how much she has helped me and how much I appreciate her for being in my life and making a positive difference everyday. She is truly a great soul, one you do not find often. I wish I could be a least half the person she is.

You Are Life

   
     From the time we were little kids, all we ever dreamed of was growing up. We would dress up and put on make-up because that is what the older kids did. We imagined growing up and getting the perfect boyfriend and the coolest job in the world! We would dream up the most spectacular wedding and later on imagine the perfect family to go with it. As kids we thought the adults always had it together, they had done everything right, and their dreams came true. As kids we had this idea that life had a meaning and if you did everything the right way, life would give you your hopes and dreams. But at some point we grow up.
     There comes a point in our lives that we realize our childhood was so much better than growing up. We have always imagined what it would be like to be older, but when we do grow up we finally understand it's not all that it is cracked up to be. But we still thirst for those moments we dreamed of. That perfect boyfriend, getting into the school of our dreams, the day of our wedding, and what our family would be like. We loose ourselves in dreaming about what kind of future we will have. Maybe life is not all about finding that one great love or family. Maybe it's about living in the moment while they last. Maybe it's about the summer days you spend trying to make art and end up making a mess. It could be about the rainy days when you just feel like staying in bed and having a movie marathon. It's about the your favorite ice cream, book, and song. So why spend all your time waiting around for "the one"? The greatest individual you could ever dream of falling in love with, is yourself.

     We are all unique in special ways, and if we spend our lives searching for that special moment or someone to come into our lives to make us feel unique or significant, we miss ourselves. So lets be real. Life really has no meaning if you think about it. Each of us has meaning and we bring it to life. Do not overlook yourself, you are magnificent in everyday possible. If you spend each day asking what is the meaning of life, then you are wasting your time, because you are the answer. 

Love

     Love: a profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person. You see love everyday, whether you see it in public affection, or in the little things. Love comes to us in all sorts of ways and leaves with a foresighted manner. It looks out for you. It sees you when you are weak and struggling and it sees you when you are arrogant and overbearing. It is a force to be reckoned with, it can be your comfort or your worst enemy. Love is much more than any of us. 
     To be loved is one thing, to love in return is much different. To love gives us more. It shows us how important the little things are to people. Everyone in the world needs a little love, and you may be the only person to show that too them. They may not know what it is like to have someone there to listen to them, or not have to pay for their only meal of the day. People in the world today, grow up not knowing what it feels like to be loved by the people around them. It makes me realize how fortunate I am to have the family, friends, and opportunities, that I do. And how fortunate I am to have parents that raised me to love others, no matter what. They showed me that a little love can go a long way in someone else's heart. No matter what a person looks like, no matter what their past looks like, or what they believe in, a person is a person, and they deserve the same respect and kindness. I don't know how to love without using my whole heart, I don't know what it is like to love someone just "half way". I give everyone love in the same way I would like to receive it back. To love gives us more. It teaches us more. It helps us more, than receiving it. To be kind, even though your day has gone to hell and back, strengthens your heart. Who knows, that could be the only love they receive that day. You never know what anyone is going through. Why make it worse with being unnecessarily impolite to the people around you just because your day is not going as you planned.
     Love is lacking in the world around us. Not only to people, but to the animals and the Earth. We need more love. We need more respect. People out there in the world do not know what it is like to feel compassion in their heart. They don't understand how a compliment could change their entire attitude. They don't believe in the tenderness of their peers. Love to them is non existent. You have the power to change someone's entire day. Love is an important thing, and to give that gift to someone would mean the world to them. 

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