Note To Future Me:
You have twenty years behind you, but you still have your whole life ahead of you.
Relax. You are also going to travel. You will go from one city to another, converse in multiple languages, explore countries and their sights. When you do, you are going to meet people who will deeply impact you. You are going to converse with people who are different from you, similar to you, people who you like or might not like. Hear their stories. What frightens them, what motivates them, what keeps them going. And you are going to find out that there is more to life than any of this.
You will feel pain, sadness, and discomfort. But you will also feel alive, exuberant, and human. Sometimes you will screw up and make mistakes. You are going to fail, be misunderstood, and get dragged, feel like you will never get up. You are going to get tired. But you are also going to realize that it is okay to fail. You will be telling yourself to rest on days you lack motivation, feel the ugliest, or have the smallest hope, but you are going to acknowledge that giving up won't be your best option. You are most likely going to lose yourself in the process of trying to figure life out, but you are also going to find something worth living for. You are going to tear yourself into pieces going after what you want, and learn to love yourself for it.
You are going to fall in love. One day. It could be a few years from now. Or maybe tomorrow. Next week. Or who knows when. Your heart is bound to be broken once or twice. But despite the inevitability, you are going to make yourself believe in love again. Because you are not as cold as ice as you would like to think. Your heart wants to love, it's what it does. You are a product of combined heartaches, growing wisdom, and rational hope. This is what makes you, you. So live to the fullest, you are still young!
This is the journey you are supposed to be taking. Consider yourself the driver. The creator. You are twenty years old, so stop doubting yourself. Be you and don't look back.
