
When I was younger I believed in that, and that alone. As I grew up and I hear people talking about me and saw people making fun of me, I conformed to the rules of society. I guess you could say that even I got lost in society. I loved everything I stood for back then, I was myself and myself only. I did what I wanted and what I felt would bring me happiness, and I was happy. I shared my happiness and loved everyone. I was truly a free spirit then. I wish I stayed that way.
As I am writing this, I realize that I am still lost in society, I never got out. I want that again. I want to not care what anyone would say about me, I want to do what makes me happy despite what the rules of society say. I lost my path so long ago and I still haven't found my way. It's easy to get caught up in society and their rules, but it's hard to go backwards after that. If only 8 year old me could come to the future and tell me how to do it! I took what I was feeling when I was little and I turned it into sunshine to brighten other people's day, so they didn't have to feel the way I did. I never realized what I did with myself until today, writing this. I felt like I was enough for people back then, why can't I feel that today?